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  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: "Alone" from TaintedTownMusic.
  • Playing: Nothing.
  • Eating: Nothing.
  • Drinking: Nothing.
One again I come back unmotivated, feeling useless, and just like a Nobody. I feel stronger forms of depression than I ever did, and it's really getting to me.

I'm beginning to cry more and more than I ever did. Maybe it's just my Broken state. I don't know. But I've written something I wanted to tell you in my journal. There's two exported from my phone journal.

"We are labeled human, but I feel not as one, but lower...where to find the lending ears of helpers to guide us back to where we feel welcomed...I have shaped time into yarn and rolled it to a ball, but now fiddled with it and lost track of how long I waited for..Why the broken to suffer more than the average?..I do wish for the sunlight of a good day soon."

"Rest is all I may do to leave stress, anxiety, depression, and all those negative moods..Sleep is all I may do..

Like death, you are not physically there, and you escape worldly limit.."

What do you think? Nice huh? Well the second one is a bit dark..but it's true in a sense. But I also want to tell you something.

...My bill is due very soon. I may not be around again, but..I will again soon. Valentine's Day will be just another mere day for me, I have no Valentine. But I wish everyone a good Valentine's Day, alright?..

I don't know the best I do here, but I will stay for the fact I am important to at least someone. One day I'll be a good person....

..I have to hold onto something, right?

Anyways...I'm gonna let you off now with a little farewell from yours truly. Don't worry about me, I'll have more stories to tell one day but, that's even if I make it far. Which I'm sure I will. For all birthdays I might miss, happy birthday. As for me,  well..mine is coming soon, but it's far. It's...April 11th, for those who forgot. I don't necessarily expect that day to be a lot but I am happy for those who care. I give my care back in return.

..

See you all, uh...soon again.
Broken by SilentRayneTsutarja
Broken
My sixth drawing of emotion.

Cubone was my very first favorite. I can relate to him in certain ways as well. In this one, I decided to express a "Broken" mood. I may be older now, but inside...It's like a child that cries from pain. Look and observe yourself, You guess what I wanted to show.

2015 R4YN3 Art.

-SilentRayneTsutarja
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  • Listening to: "Disorder."
  • Reading: My Thoughts.
  • Watching: The World Around Me.
  • Playing: Nothing.
  • Eating: Nothing.
  • Drinking: Nothing.
Rayne here again.

There is something I want to do today because I woke up with this, and it deserves to be shared what good news it was for me.

FantasyRebirth96 has commented and :+fav:'ed most of my artwork. I say that I'm very happy waking up to that. Such dedication it brings me into drawing knowing I have a few good watchers out there still. :) Great job again, my friend..:D

Next, I want to share a little peek of what I've got going on. I've been busy around Facebook, because I had to do requests there, do requests here, ugh, what a blowout of things to do. Um, for ideas I have, I'll share one: You know my mood sketches (the ones that are all gray except with one color)? I have another one coming up. This one is gonna be my original first favorite...Cubone. You may get an idea what it'll be about, I'll leave that to you.

The problem that makes me overwhelmed though, it's not too much the many requests I still must do, it's the depression I suffer, the endurance I must prosper with, it's a lot of things....I'm gonna need help here, fellow watchers. I ask all of you that care. I would show and rewritten it back, but I'm only on my phone sadly. I don't have anything else, and I cannot get to other pages. They load slowly. :(

Lastly, I want to thank all my other friends/family that are there. You all are supportive. Supportive in keeping a struggling artist in his touch with art. You have my support in return.

Best Wishes from your Friend,
~SilentRayneTsutarja.
  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: "Alone" from TaintedTownMusic.
  • Playing: Nothing.
  • Eating: Nothing.
  • Drinking: Nothing.
One again I come back unmotivated, feeling useless, and just like a Nobody. I feel stronger forms of depression than I ever did, and it's really getting to me.

I'm beginning to cry more and more than I ever did. Maybe it's just my Broken state. I don't know. But I've written something I wanted to tell you in my journal. There's two exported from my phone journal.

"We are labeled human, but I feel not as one, but lower...where to find the lending ears of helpers to guide us back to where we feel welcomed...I have shaped time into yarn and rolled it to a ball, but now fiddled with it and lost track of how long I waited for..Why the broken to suffer more than the average?..I do wish for the sunlight of a good day soon."

"Rest is all I may do to leave stress, anxiety, depression, and all those negative moods..Sleep is all I may do..

Like death, you are not physically there, and you escape worldly limit.."

What do you think? Nice huh? Well the second one is a bit dark..but it's true in a sense. But I also want to tell you something.

...My bill is due very soon. I may not be around again, but..I will again soon. Valentine's Day will be just another mere day for me, I have no Valentine. But I wish everyone a good Valentine's Day, alright?..

I don't know the best I do here, but I will stay for the fact I am important to at least someone. One day I'll be a good person....

..I have to hold onto something, right?

Anyways...I'm gonna let you off now with a little farewell from yours truly. Don't worry about me, I'll have more stories to tell one day but, that's even if I make it far. Which I'm sure I will. For all birthdays I might miss, happy birthday. As for me,  well..mine is coming soon, but it's far. It's...April 11th, for those who forgot. I don't necessarily expect that day to be a lot but I am happy for those who care. I give my care back in return.

..

See you all, uh...soon again.

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Joseph 'Rayne' Trujillo III
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My name is Joseph Eliseo Trujillo III, or for my main "Original Character", Rayne Terra Exodus . I have lived a life, full of misery in most areas. For once I thought it was gone...I was wrong. Half my life, I have went through unimaginable traces of unthinkable mishap, it's shaped me into a different being. I can remember many events in my history like it was yesterday.

Anyways, I am great with writing skill, as well as other school subjects and of course, art. My usual drawing is composed of a simple pencil and pen. Other times, I will use a dash of color. For now, I'm using AutoDesk SketchBook Pro, a drawing app that works well for any artwork.

I do know Latin, but I prefer to use English. If you've got a question about me, by all means, ask.

"Immaturity is not tolerated. Be straight out."
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The only goal I have is to get points to give to others as gifts, such as for birthdays and for favoriting my artwork.

Also, for only 2 points, I can do perhaps one request.

Also, I'd be grateful for donated points.
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Commissions Officially (Re)Open
I'm new to this whole Commission thing, but I wanted to announce I am officially having requests open again. I'm sorry for everyone I never did the requests they asked. :(

 The price or whatever is only 5-10 points per piece, and also, Please be patient.

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Lexi247 Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2015
Just stopping by to say hello! :hug: Have a wonderful day~
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LinzoReborn Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2015
Hais:3
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SilentRayneTsutarja Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2015  Student General Artist
Hello there :) how are you?
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LinzoReborn Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2015
I'm good:hug:
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SilentRayneTsutarja Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2015  Student General Artist
That's good :hug:
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ComanderSprings Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2015
Tag a quality deviant, You’re it! Quality doesn’t mean that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how much followers you have. Send this to 10 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it’s just good to let someone know that you love them!
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SilentRayneTsutarja Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2015  Student General Artist
Aw, thank you ^-^ It means a lot to me
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ComanderSprings Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2015
^_^
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SilentRayneTsutarja Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2015  Student General Artist
Good to finally be back, I'll tell you that...I missed being around :(
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MrKeeper Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you very much for the watch ^u^ Hope you have a wonderful day!
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