It's times like this I wonder why I bother having blood related people in my life labeled "family" if they hate me so much.
My aunt's family hates me.
My uncle's family hates me.
A lot of "family" hates me.
For those who stuck around at least since 2013, they know about this. But for those who haven't, I'm going to give a brief explanation.
I was poor and still am poor years ago. We got to California to live with my aunt since we had another eviction. It was nice at first until the next month. She treated everyone, especially me, like shit. While she and her family got to go out and eat, we were stuck at home with unfair rules, cleaning up after them, very bad limitations, and more. Guess what I ate daily for breakfast, lunch and dinner: white rice. No sweets, not even cereal. At the time I was still with my ex, but things got bad so I didn't have help there either. But oh well.
As for finding out why they hate me, outs because I'm not like them. I'm quiet, collected, calm. They're outgoing, loud, and just talkative. But that doesn't give them the right to treat me like a stranger. My own cousin threatened me that he'd hurt me if I said things wrong. Even though I could have knocked him out, I was still nice just because I know better.
Anyways, this year,I learned my uncle's family hates me. I went BACK to California for a "vacation"..which was NOT a vacation. It was the same thing once more.
But you knew what, I don't care. I grew up mistreated by the world, and now that I know my own family hates me, I couldn't care less what happens. "Friends" did this, family did this, there's only a few that don't do it to me. I can summarize that I've grown bitter. I'm not like I used to be but it's not my fault. I tried to grow up right, but being poor and being different ruined that for me. I'm single, I'm struggling.
Sometimes I have many wants and needs, but nothing can satisfy them. Sometimes I want to feel human and want things, but I can't even do that from how bad things have gotten. Again, oh well...
But hey, thanks for reading what's on my mind.